I’ve been working with my wonderful sponsor now for 2 months, as a busy mum. I wasn’t aware of how sponsorship worked at all, until I started to meet with my sponsor at her house. Every time that we would meet, we would literally sit down on her couch whilst she read out aloud, word by word, the AA Big Book.
Whilst sitting down and being read to sounds quite boring, it actually hasn’t been. As we work our way through each chapter in the book, my sponsor will stop at the key pieces of text and help interpret that section to me using her real life examples. Those examples have been invaluable, as they have helped me relate to her, and also my situation as an alcoholic.
The first two steps in the AA journey are really just about theory and coming to the understanding that we are alcoholics. The third step and beyond, are actually the doing steps.
It felt like step 3 came upon us really quickly, and I didn’t realise how powerful and important this step is. The reason is, this is the time that we have the ’emotional / personality change’ and truly give ourselves, our thought patterns and our belief over to a higher power.
As we read through the big book, we got to the Step 3 prayer. For this prayer, my sponsor got me to kneel down in the prayer position, and read with her the third step prayer.
God, I offer myself to Thee – To build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.Step 3 Prayer
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!
As we read through the words in this prayer, I felt a jolt of energy, I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders and I felt truly moved. I haven’t prayed like this since I was in primary school, where I went to a catholic school, the very act of praying was incredibly powerful, moving and emotional.
My sponsor has spent a lot of time stressing that my ‘higher power’ doesn’t have to be god in the traditional sense. I do not have to conform to a religion, my higher power can be just a spiritual presence that I believe in, my sponsor has told me she’s even seen people say their higher power is a chair, a tree or a book.
For me, I’ve always known that I have a higher power, I just haven’t acknowledged it or listened to it as well as I should over the years. But since taking this step, I am reacquainting myself with a power greater than me, to help protect, guide and encourage my sobriety.